I’m tired of pretending I’m ok
Each day wearing a mask
Nights getting harder to pass
My hands getting closer to the flask
My love getting far, harder to grasp
When, how long will suffering in such silence last?
My Eyes burning, salty waterfalls barricaded
I hate myself more then I ever have
To be fair, when have I ever?
All my love floats, nothing remains for me but small rations I spread out for a week
Each ounce of love determined at scale
Yet each night, tears threaten to fall and I come closer to the rail
I know I shouldn’t feel this way
Because there’s nothing wrong, right?
But what else can I do!?
Keep acting like a jester
When I’m really just a prisoner
What right do I have?
I’m loved, well versed and kind
But you don’t know what happens
In other people’s minds...
Make this pain go away,
Fall, crumble and disappear
I wish for nothing but bliss
But my wish is just a wish
each word I type, holds phrase doubled
Each poem I pour, is part of my heart but quadrupled
Like this one, lies in my sleeping conviction
I speak so much of love, yet I feel nothing but dead ears listening...